Memory Loss

Still-Alice-coverI forgot my mother’s birthday.

Well, technically, I didn’t forget it – I was just a whole month early for it. And when the mistake was pointed out to me (by my mother), it actually freaked me out.

I blame February’s 28 days for the mix-up but it should have registered that her birthday is just 8 days before my youngest son’s, not a whole month before.  It’s a semi-long and complicated story but the general idea is that I had two meetings in my calendar for the 16th of February and March and figured I could kill two birds with one stone by traveling to Brisbane early and spending time with Mum on the weekend for her birthday. Only thing is, the meeting is March is a teleconference and the one in Feb an onsite one. So in between all of that, I got a little mixed up.

But still …

It was a shocking moment when I realised my mistake. I was absolutely gobsmacked at my own stupidity. How could this happen? I’ve known my mum’s birth date for almost as long as I’ve known her! Am I losing my marbles? What is going on here?

There’s a movie out at the moment called “Still Alice” starring Julianne Moore. I haven’t seen it yet but I read the book by Lisa Genova a few years ago. It’s a brilliant yet terrifying read from the first person viewpoint of Dr Alice Howland, a noted linguistics professor at Columbia University who makes the devastating discovery that she has early-onset Alzheimer’s disease.  Everyone gets forgetful; loses keys; can’t remember someone telling them they were going somewhere etc. But it’s when she’s doing the same morning jog through the same streets she’s followed for years then suddenly coming to a stop in the middle of campus and not recognising anything that she realises there’s something more than simple forgetfulness going on.

I can’t imagine what it would be like to slowly lose yourself – but I think I had a taste of it the other day and I can safely say it is not a pleasant sensation.

I made jokes about it with the kids, asking for assurances that when I get to the point where I start forgetting to put my pants on and go wandering the neighbourhood, they’ll come and drag me back home and dress me.  Their response was along the lines of believing I should be free to do what I want and why stop me from entertaining everyone?

Little bastards …



Away on business

I don’t think I would ever want to be an events planner full-time because, as it turns out, the control freak in me can’t stand having to rely on several different people to do their part to make it all happen smoothly.

And people who order specific diets then don’t eat them but instead munch down on what everyone else is having bring out the bossy mummy in me. I want to shove that specially prepared box of nut-free yeast-free gluten-free taste-free shit in their face and shout “YOU ORDERED IT! NOW YOU EAT IT!”

Having had my little rant, the whole event went very well and I am relieved that it is over for the year and I didn’t fall flat on my face. And I guess it was a good experience that I have learnt from and will take the lessons with me for next years’ major conference.

Yep, that’s right. I said I’ll do it again.

A few good things have come from it though:

1. Money, money, money

As a control freak and lover of spreadsheets, I’ve set up a little business plan for the 2014/2015 financial year and for the past two months, I have earned double my allotted amount. Yay! Which has made up for the slow months where I was doing IVF and didn’t earn half of my allotted amount.  At the moment, I’m over $1000 ahead of my Year To Date Budget … but the slow season of Christmas/New Year is coming so I’m not counting my chickens just yet.  Still, it’s nice to know I can set goals and achieve them.

2. Upgraded status

I’ve upped my standing with the group that hired me to do administrative duties then gave me this as an ‘other duty as required’. They think I’m the shizz, which makes me happy because that means they’ll pay me no questions asked.

3. Networking

The experience introduced to me to other people outside my normal circles who seemed interested in the fact I’m a former librarian slash proofreader slash graphic designer. One thing I’ve definitely learnt in my relatively short life (hey, if I live to 90 like I’ve planned, I’m only just halfway now) is that it’s really not what you know but who you know. Relationships truly do make the world go round.

4. Learning to let go

That was hard. Really hard. But I think that every time I delegate and just let go of the reins, I grow a little more. This can only be a good thing.

All in all, it was a great experience and even though I am totally exhausted, it was definitely worth it.